Hello from July

Hello from July…

Hola. I almost sat down and wrote to all of you in May as predicted, but instead I just re read through all of my goals in my last blog and called it a day.

So here I sit. One month and 2 weeks until I’m a Sadie Sadie married lady. WOW. I’ll let you in on a little glimpse of life as of right now. I’M NOT NERVOUS TO GET MARRIED. I am however STREEESSSED out!! And no, there is nothing that anyone else can do to take that stress away lol because if there was, I would quickly delegate. I’m on my own with the dress fittings, the tux’s, the guest list addresses, the shopping and preparing. $$$$$ It all boils down to money. Bryan and I have yet to grasp that concept of a budget. No matter how I try to live it ends up being less than paycheck to paycheck. Seriously, I’m excited to get married for all the right reasons, but BIILLLL CUUUUTTT… Sep can you please get here, I’m sick of paying rent by myself every month.
Can I give a shout out to my best friend puuuhhlease? She is the biggest Gem you will ever meet in your whole life. Not only is she a Mother, wife, daughter, sister and Nurse, but she somehow still finds the time to be my best friend/maid of honor. It makes me tear up from time to time trying to grasp how much she must love me (I’m still not quite sure how I deserve it,) in order for her to juggle my crazy life right on top of hers. She went ahead and planned my whole bachelorette party and anything that wasn’t perfect about it was in no way related to her or her perfect party planning. Not to mention dealing with my crazy family/friends in all other party planning aspects. She has been so quick to pick up any pieces during this engagement time that may have gotten broken (along with my mom.) Without her, Bryan would be a big huge ball of stress because I would be dumping all my cares on his shoulders instead.
So Stine, THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU. If I had a billion dollars, I would buy you a pony and fly you to Hawaii. I love you with all of my heart.


Thank you to all of my other besties that have traveled from near and far, called or messaged me to comfort, collect my thoughts or talk me off the ledge every other day. you are a treasure to me. More treasured than I could ever convey to you. The skype sessions, the backroom pep talks, the long distance phone calls, or the check in text messages. I appreciate them all. You all know my love language is COMMUNICATION. without it, I go bonkers. Here's the catch 22, I am TERRIBLE at responding. lol but the fact that you all consistently let me know I'm treasured  gives me daily reason to smile. :) I LOVE YYOOOUUU!!!!

 I am so thankful that I am choosing a life with one mate. I will NEVER go through all of this wedding hubub EVER AGAIN. It’s simply put, not for me. I am not a planner, and even though I keep a planner, I do not enjoy having no room for adventure or le way. Nor do I enjoy having every Jane, Lucy and Sandra calling me inquiring about anything wedding related every single day. LEAVE ME ALONE. QUIT CALLING ME, and LET ME BE MARRIED ALREADY.
- Discretion- I am however going to enjoy every basking moment of wedding shower glory while I’m in it. NO REGRETS. And one more discretion, I would have been even more worse off had I been engaged for a longer amount of time. Ever day that passes makes me even more stressed. We would have been good candidates for eloping. We actually discusses this several times but felt we would both regret not having a wedding one day in the distant future. So here we sit…planning the wedding that we don’t want to regret. ;)

I turned 25 on the 9th and I must say, it feels pretty grown up. I was fully expecting to have a melt down as 25 to my solidifies being a grown up and not a baby. However I truly think I had the very best birthday weekend EVER which made it a lot funner crossing that thresh hold.

I had  golden birthday re-do (because I clearly wasn’t able to revel in the golden ness at 9 years old.)
It was honestly one of the funnest nights I think I have had in FOREVER. Most all of my friends that make my heart smile were there. Everyone wore gold. It was fabulous. The next day per annual tradition, Bryan and I went to valley fair with my friend Kit and her lovely man Ned. I went ahead and threw my back out like a normal grandma who just turned 25. Oh and kit almost drowned in the wave pool lol. All in all, everything was totally worth it and it was a fabulous day. THAN last but not least on my actual birthday, it quite possibly might have been the BEEESSSSTTT day. I started the morning out having birthday coffee with my best friend and I got to spend some quality time with my God daughter. I feel so blessed to have witnessed her crawling in its beginning stages. I hear she’s a real mover now. ;) Than I picked up Bryan and I swear we drove everywhere under the sun. We picked up free birthday coffee twice, (one for him, one for me.) Than headed on up to tailors falls, stopping many times for adventure in between all of that. We finished out journey off with dinner at leo’s in dt Stillwater. I got to hang out with his parents for a brief moment and play with the pup, than I got to finish off my birthday with the ones who gave me life. THIRD ROUND OF BIRTHDAY COFFEE WITH MOM AND DAD!!!! J Oh and I got to hang out with the Ziolkowski’s for a half hour. All day long everyone under the sun called, texted or messaged me a happy birthday. Than just when I thought the day couldn’t possibly get any better, I walked into the door of my apartment to find a giant bouquet of yellow roses and tiger lily’s waiting for me. THANKS MOM. I was so overwhelmed I almost couldn’t sleep. It was the perfect birthday season transition into wedding season. I have many pictures to post and many more updates to follow, but I feel I have left you with enough for tonight.

Love from my heart to yours,

Ciao Bella-

I knew it would be good...

Hola from 2012.

Life is really great right now. In fact, I feel like a whole new person. Kind of anyway. I mean, deep down under everything I'm still the same old girl I always was. Just a little older (unfortunately.) Sorry I don't write a whole lot. I could probably blame it on my lack of internet but really what it boils down to is my lack of motivation to write. Funny because growing up, that is ALL that I did. I wrote songs, stories, poems, everything and anything that would form a sentence, I wrote it. Well, shout out to my stine-hars because she is probably the only one reading this. Which I am completely A.O.K with.

I have learned so much about myself in this past year. Some of the things I don't really care for, and others I will own with pride. Life is funny that way. God has brought so many amazing people into my life over the course of these past 365 days. Some I call my friends, some I call my co workers, some I call my family and others I just call "little buffers." ;) I recently got engaged, and that happening changed a LOT in my life. My hopes and dreams are all still there, but I have a whole slew of others that have been tacked on to those. A lot of my creative outlets have taken a back seat this past year which kind of saddens me. However if I fail to do anything about it to get them back, well than it's no one else's blame. I think I am going to take advantage of the 21 day fast that Substance does every year. I want to spend some time focusing on a few different areas of my life in the next 6 months. In order to do that I will either need to finish One tree hill asap (not an option,) or put it on the back burner, shut the tv off completely and get to work.

Being that it is a new year I of course have a few goals that I would like to try to achieve to better myself as a person, but also to be true to myself as a child of God. I don't consider these "new years resolution's" however because should God take me in a different direction completely I am not going to look back and consider the un-achieved as failures. Also because some of these things are things that I should have down phat by now and they just need to be adjusted so that my lifestyle reflects them. TOUGH

---IN 2012 I WOULD LIKE TO---

*Become a more dedicated person.

*Finish writing some music that I've labeled "UNABLE."

*Learn how to love and receive love in an unfathomable way.

*Budget my time wisely. [I get 2 day's off a week and have 987656 things/people that I would like to see/do.]

*Pick up my guitar daily

*Volunteer somewhere, somehow, I want to not only give back, but just GIVE in general.

*Learn to decipher what God's voice sounds like as opposed to my own.

*Fall in love with my job again every morning.

*Learn to love my clients and appreciate what they can bring into my life.

*Start learning french.(ahahaha...if I am really listing some of my dreams here.)

*Pray for the attention span of a gold fish to dissipate.

*Learn my fiance's love language.

*Give back to my parents in any way that I can.

*Visit my grand parents at least monthly, so that when I tell them I love them and appreciate them, it will not be in vain.

*Walk my dog more (so that my mom's life span for her does not come to fruition.) HA!

*Be a big part of Addies life.

*Show my best friends how much I value them

*learn the meaning of diligence, whether it be in my work outs, in my devotions, in doing my laundry, dishes, grocery shopping etc.

*Drink more water

*Go on COFFEE dates

*Clean up my language, and I don't mean ENGLISH.

And above all, I want to learn what it really means to share Christ's love with people so that when the spirit moves I can move with it.

I've been learning this past week via a book series Ive started that life really really REALLY is but a breath. We have a chance right here, right now to be a different person than we were yesterday. It's to short and to unknown to live selfishly, hindered and full of baggage. I want to let go of any suitcase full of worry, shame, tainted brokenness, confusion, labeled 2011 and beyond. I want to live in freedom. Freedom was given to us as a gift when Christ died on that cross for our sins. However, freedom is a choice that we need to choose daily. We can choose to put one foot in front of the other and walk in grace, or we can choose to pick up that suit case and be stuck. You can't fly when you have that kind of weight in your life.

I've already started making changes in my life, including letting go of people I've sadly clung to with false hope of reconciliation. I must say it was ridiculously hard to come to terms with that, however after going about the "clean up," the freedom that I have felt lately is unimaginable.

That all being said, I hope that 2012 holds clarity for all of your homes and hearts. ANNDDD lets be real, I probably won't be back on here until at LEAST May. ;)


Love- T

Interior Design Lauren conrad style

Sooooo I liked this article she wrote, and I want to be able to look back on it...SOOO I'm posting it in my bloggity blog (that I NEVER EVER write in.) haha. CIAO BELLAAAA-


http://www.laurenconrad.com/post/interior-design-5-things-you-should-know

Interior Design: 5 Things You Should Know

7/14/2011
by Lauren Conrad

Some things come naturally to certain people: baking, drawing, decorating a room… For the rest of us, it takes an education. When I decorated my first apartment, I knew what I wanted but had trouble bringing that vision to life. I guess you could say I was overwhelmed. The daunting task of pulling together a space that wasn’t just a bedroom in a fully furnished house, seemed like an impossible chore. As with all things, it took practice, a few moves, and some divine (design) inspiration to finally feel comfortable decorating my home.

Whether your space is simply a room or an entire house, there are a few things I’ve learned about interior design to help you conquer your design demons…

#1: Personalize your space.
Your home (or room) should reflect who you are. If someone were to walk into your home, they should know that it’s yours. The best way to achieve this is by including accessories that reveal your hobbies and interests. What’s important is that you distance yourself from what the stores are telling you to buy. Often times we are drawn to ideas that are trendy or pre-done: “Of course this white lacquered elephant statue would look great in my bedroom!” But is that really you? Maybe not. Instead, aim for pieces that compliment your personal clothing style. You may be surprised to discover that styling an outfit isn’t too different from decorating a room. So take a look in your closet. What colors are you drawn to? Do you prefer mod or modern? Clean cuts or lacy ruffles? Use your taste in clothing as a style guide for your home—it’s an easy way to ensure your space is 100% you.

#2: Work with your surroundings.
It’s important to understand your design limitations. Be familiar with the size and scale of the room. Also, consider your environment and respond to it. Whether you’re in the city or the countryside, it helps to take a cue from your surroundings. In turn, you can narrow down your choices based on the context of your space.

#3: Keep comfort in mind.
Have you ever purchased a piece of furniture simply because it was pretty, only to discover that it’s painfully uncomfortable (or useless)? I don’t know about you, but I am definitely guilty of this offense. Nevertheless, the silver lining of this mistake is that I learned an important lesson: comfort is key. When I think of “home sweet home,” the first word that comes to mind is cozy. Making your home comfy and cozy is a must. Nothing is worse than going to a friend’s house and awkwardly balancing on their post-modern chair. Your space should be inviting and comfortable.

#4: Stick with the classics.
There’s a reason classic is, well, classic. Incorporating pieces that have withstood the test of time gives you the freedom to translate them as your design style evolves. Using classic furniture, prints, and fabrics provides you with a basic foundation to build on with trendy or personalized accessories and finishes. Let’s say you find a gorgeous antique credenza or a traditional armchair. You love the shape and feel of the piece, but the finish or fabric is all wrong. In this situation, I say: invest! There are plenty of ways to transform an older, classic shaped piece of furniture. If it’s a sofa: reupholster, add throw pillows… An aged dresser: paint it! The possibilities are endless when it comes to updating a timeless piece.

#5 Less is more.
Keep it simple. You don’t want to overcrowd your space. If you edit the items in each room, the area will appear to be cleaner and even bigger. Just remember, you can always add more!

I hope you find my tips helpful the next time you find yourself face-to-face with an interior design project.

If you have any additional suggestions, please share them in the comments below!

XO Lauren

A birthday celebration

Hey folks!
haha, do you ever expect me to be consistent with my blogs? NOOOPE. Just wanted to give a quick shout out to everyone who made my birthday week something to remember. I truly am so grateful for my friends and family. I got to spend a whole day with my dad last Thursday, than a whole evening with my mom on Friday. I saw my best friend Thursday night, and my soul sister called me on my day-o-birth. And to top it off , I had all the rest of my special people take me out/meet me out in uptown. Sunday=recovery/valley fair/sooo many great memories/spending the whole day with my brothers. Truly this was one of the best weeks ever! I have sooo much sleep to catch up on but whatevs! :)

And this week brings packing packing packing, because Bryan moves into his very first apartment. COOL! ;)

xoxoxoxox!

Spring-spiration

I know that it snowed last night, however, none of it stuck to my ground or my car...which signals to tell me that spring maybe, quite possibly, has finally arrived.
I found myself sitting at my "creating" desk last night, doing just that, creating. Watching GG, and listening to what was at that moment, the rain outside. I felt inspiration that seemed to have left me for the duration of winter, all of a sudden right back at my finger tips. This winter has truly been a hard one for me, and I cannot show my true excitement enough to have it G-O-N-E. I'm not only feeling inspired in my craft, but in work, in my relationships, in my family life, and the list goes on and on.

I can't wait to see the flowers!

Amidst all the struggles in my life as of lately, I can say with a smile that I AM BLESSED, and Life, Truly IS GOOD!

RAAAAAAAAH!

Avacado's...HEY SURE.

So I LOOOVE avacado! I love all forms of it, guac, salads etc etc. I was curious tonight, just how many calories are actually IN an avacado. GREAT NEWS!!!

http://www.3fatchicks.com/how-many-calories-are-in-an-avocado/

Boo

So my boyfriend is on vacation in AZ right now, he left on thursday and won't be back until saturday. Its only been 6 days and I have come to a scary conclusion...i can't live without him. Everything I do during the day seems to remind me that he is gone, and I'm consistantly on the verge of tears especially if he calls. But get this, I was just in mexico for a week so I have no reason to be bad at him for going, and yet every time he calls me I'm pissy with him. It almost hurts to hear his voice. WOW, who am I? Oh and the kicker is that he drunkenly jumped in the lake with his phone and now I can't even talk to him for the next 4 days. I'm seriously so mad at him for taking a vacation for so long lol. AH, dont ever date me, I'm a CRAZY girlfriend.
Ok, vent session over, I'm going to bed! Oh and for the record, I went to the gym tonight...post mexico resolution has begun!
Hooolllaaa!