Hello from July

Hello from July…

Hola. I almost sat down and wrote to all of you in May as predicted, but instead I just re read through all of my goals in my last blog and called it a day.

So here I sit. One month and 2 weeks until I’m a Sadie Sadie married lady. WOW. I’ll let you in on a little glimpse of life as of right now. I’M NOT NERVOUS TO GET MARRIED. I am however STREEESSSED out!! And no, there is nothing that anyone else can do to take that stress away lol because if there was, I would quickly delegate. I’m on my own with the dress fittings, the tux’s, the guest list addresses, the shopping and preparing. $$$$$ It all boils down to money. Bryan and I have yet to grasp that concept of a budget. No matter how I try to live it ends up being less than paycheck to paycheck. Seriously, I’m excited to get married for all the right reasons, but BIILLLL CUUUUTTT… Sep can you please get here, I’m sick of paying rent by myself every month.
Can I give a shout out to my best friend puuuhhlease? She is the biggest Gem you will ever meet in your whole life. Not only is she a Mother, wife, daughter, sister and Nurse, but she somehow still finds the time to be my best friend/maid of honor. It makes me tear up from time to time trying to grasp how much she must love me (I’m still not quite sure how I deserve it,) in order for her to juggle my crazy life right on top of hers. She went ahead and planned my whole bachelorette party and anything that wasn’t perfect about it was in no way related to her or her perfect party planning. Not to mention dealing with my crazy family/friends in all other party planning aspects. She has been so quick to pick up any pieces during this engagement time that may have gotten broken (along with my mom.) Without her, Bryan would be a big huge ball of stress because I would be dumping all my cares on his shoulders instead.
So Stine, THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU. If I had a billion dollars, I would buy you a pony and fly you to Hawaii. I love you with all of my heart.


Thank you to all of my other besties that have traveled from near and far, called or messaged me to comfort, collect my thoughts or talk me off the ledge every other day. you are a treasure to me. More treasured than I could ever convey to you. The skype sessions, the backroom pep talks, the long distance phone calls, or the check in text messages. I appreciate them all. You all know my love language is COMMUNICATION. without it, I go bonkers. Here's the catch 22, I am TERRIBLE at responding. lol but the fact that you all consistently let me know I'm treasured  gives me daily reason to smile. :) I LOVE YYOOOUUU!!!!

 I am so thankful that I am choosing a life with one mate. I will NEVER go through all of this wedding hubub EVER AGAIN. It’s simply put, not for me. I am not a planner, and even though I keep a planner, I do not enjoy having no room for adventure or le way. Nor do I enjoy having every Jane, Lucy and Sandra calling me inquiring about anything wedding related every single day. LEAVE ME ALONE. QUIT CALLING ME, and LET ME BE MARRIED ALREADY.
- Discretion- I am however going to enjoy every basking moment of wedding shower glory while I’m in it. NO REGRETS. And one more discretion, I would have been even more worse off had I been engaged for a longer amount of time. Ever day that passes makes me even more stressed. We would have been good candidates for eloping. We actually discusses this several times but felt we would both regret not having a wedding one day in the distant future. So here we sit…planning the wedding that we don’t want to regret. ;)

I turned 25 on the 9th and I must say, it feels pretty grown up. I was fully expecting to have a melt down as 25 to my solidifies being a grown up and not a baby. However I truly think I had the very best birthday weekend EVER which made it a lot funner crossing that thresh hold.

I had  golden birthday re-do (because I clearly wasn’t able to revel in the golden ness at 9 years old.)
It was honestly one of the funnest nights I think I have had in FOREVER. Most all of my friends that make my heart smile were there. Everyone wore gold. It was fabulous. The next day per annual tradition, Bryan and I went to valley fair with my friend Kit and her lovely man Ned. I went ahead and threw my back out like a normal grandma who just turned 25. Oh and kit almost drowned in the wave pool lol. All in all, everything was totally worth it and it was a fabulous day. THAN last but not least on my actual birthday, it quite possibly might have been the BEEESSSSTTT day. I started the morning out having birthday coffee with my best friend and I got to spend some quality time with my God daughter. I feel so blessed to have witnessed her crawling in its beginning stages. I hear she’s a real mover now. ;) Than I picked up Bryan and I swear we drove everywhere under the sun. We picked up free birthday coffee twice, (one for him, one for me.) Than headed on up to tailors falls, stopping many times for adventure in between all of that. We finished out journey off with dinner at leo’s in dt Stillwater. I got to hang out with his parents for a brief moment and play with the pup, than I got to finish off my birthday with the ones who gave me life. THIRD ROUND OF BIRTHDAY COFFEE WITH MOM AND DAD!!!! J Oh and I got to hang out with the Ziolkowski’s for a half hour. All day long everyone under the sun called, texted or messaged me a happy birthday. Than just when I thought the day couldn’t possibly get any better, I walked into the door of my apartment to find a giant bouquet of yellow roses and tiger lily’s waiting for me. THANKS MOM. I was so overwhelmed I almost couldn’t sleep. It was the perfect birthday season transition into wedding season. I have many pictures to post and many more updates to follow, but I feel I have left you with enough for tonight.

Love from my heart to yours,

Ciao Bella-