The backroom is eating me alive

RUUUUH ROOOOOOW...

Business is SLOW. Slower than slow, it's like watching ice try to melt in below zero weather...IT DOESN'T HAPPEN!! I'm not even upset about the economy, it is what it is. I am however questioning my goals, wants and dreams for my life as of now. I have gone on many tangents in the last 2 weeks. I have had MUCH "down time" to question where I am in my life and I must say, my revelations have been a surprise. I'm ready for more, and less all at the same time. I won't complain about a single work related issue due to the fact that anyone could read this, so bare with my cryptic-ness. I love being a hairdresser, I love my clients. I don't love the hours I get to waste sitting on my butt not doing hair and not seeing my clients.  Honestly I don't want to work 9+ hour days for the next chapter in my life. They haven't paid off in the past, they are not propelling me or setting me up for the future. The only thing they are doing is inhibiting me from living a life and keeping all the shampoo bottles full and the backroom relatively clean. I know happiness isn't everything but I do believe in feeling a sense of pride and purpose in what you do from day to day and doing "this" for 9 hours, 5 days a week gives me no sense of that. I want more, I NEED MORE. I want less hours of agonizing over all the things I could be accomplishing in life outside of my four work walls and more accomplishing my dreams. I have goals and a time frame that I am going to live by for the next year, but I must say I am getting excited for what comes "next." I just need to figure out what that is...

stay tuned.