See ya never...or in 5 days

Last night I deleted my facebook and instagram off of my phone, which I do about once every two months. We will see how long I can hold out this time before quickly re downloading.I just get so sick of being consumed with wasteful knowledge of other people's fake lives. I loath the posts that constantly complain, and I loath the posts that are clearly way to consistently perfect to be real. Kind of whiney, I know. I toy with the idea of deleting my facebook like every other day. It would be easier just to delete all the people that drive me bonkers but half of them are people that would actually get offended and are much to close in life to not cause discomfort. I would be semi sad to lose all my photos from the last billion years but seriously what would life be like if I didn't care about anything that anyone posted anywhere! :) I WANT TO BE FREEEEEE! For right now I am just doing what I always do and I'll just keep deleting and re downloading my dumb phone apps seeking freedom and connection all at the same time. Can we say conflicted?? HA! :)

anyway good luck to me, if I can convince myself and my hubby to take the plunge than perhaps 2013 could be facebook free.

Instagram on the other hand I more than likely will re download tomorrow! ;)

cheers.

The backroom is eating me alive

RUUUUH ROOOOOOW...

Business is SLOW. Slower than slow, it's like watching ice try to melt in below zero weather...IT DOESN'T HAPPEN!! I'm not even upset about the economy, it is what it is. I am however questioning my goals, wants and dreams for my life as of now. I have gone on many tangents in the last 2 weeks. I have had MUCH "down time" to question where I am in my life and I must say, my revelations have been a surprise. I'm ready for more, and less all at the same time. I won't complain about a single work related issue due to the fact that anyone could read this, so bare with my cryptic-ness. I love being a hairdresser, I love my clients. I don't love the hours I get to waste sitting on my butt not doing hair and not seeing my clients.  Honestly I don't want to work 9+ hour days for the next chapter in my life. They haven't paid off in the past, they are not propelling me or setting me up for the future. The only thing they are doing is inhibiting me from living a life and keeping all the shampoo bottles full and the backroom relatively clean. I know happiness isn't everything but I do believe in feeling a sense of pride and purpose in what you do from day to day and doing "this" for 9 hours, 5 days a week gives me no sense of that. I want more, I NEED MORE. I want less hours of agonizing over all the things I could be accomplishing in life outside of my four work walls and more accomplishing my dreams. I have goals and a time frame that I am going to live by for the next year, but I must say I am getting excited for what comes "next." I just need to figure out what that is...

stay tuned.