tradition

where there is silence, and where there is sound, and all of the moments in between-
that is where you can find me.

I'm bouncing into change like its 1993

He's wearing new cologne and I'm hanging up shelves
were a matching pair him and I
him and I, were a matching pair

Every day is something new, and I'm past the point of ready to find it.
I put on my anthems and I put rubber to road.
starting early on my "resolutions"
change has begun

It would be nice to think that the friends we keep
are the friends that keep us back
unfortunately
for you and for me
people are people are people are WACK

last spring changed my timeline once again
and that season -as do all seasons-
fluttered in like a lion and out like a lamb

I've based my whole new being off of that very altering experience
learned who I am, who I'm willing to be, and who I simply AM NOT

I am NOT your fall out girl
i AM not your friend
I am not your diary
I AM NOT your beginning or your END

I REFUSE to be strings on your fiddle that you play
without naming names

I am ME, I am WORTHY, I am WORTH IT

I will never forget
I am already moving on- you just don't know it yet-

He's my best guy friend
She's my best girl friend

I fit snug between the people who love me and my meter beeps every time you walk into the room.
Please don't make me beg for separation
I'm gonna do me, and you need to do you.

Admit the things that you have done have brought change that you cannot unravel.
I saw truth last spring-
when you experience truth, you open your suit case-
take out the nonsense
and fill up with the elements around you.

Twenty thirteen, I embrace you with open arms.

I'm ready for new traditions...

I made it a week

Instagram is back. I folded. Everyone kept saying to me, well didn't you see my picture??? Facebook ignorance doesn't bother me as much. ie- didn't you see my picture? Because chances are whether I am on facebook or not, I won't see the darn picture. There are just WAY to many people on facebook for me. But instagram, naaaaaaah, I'll see the picture! PICTURE PICTURE PICTURE.

Hus and I are snuggling on the couch together right now. This, right here, this is one of my favorite moments with him. I feel like a kid in the morning before getting ready for school. We wager with ourselves getting up early, and the way we get er done? "Ok, lets go lay on the couch and watch tv." It works every time. Just like a kid. Only were not watching cartoons, were watching my beloved Today show. My second favorite moment of the day with my honeeeeey is being exactly right back on this couch snuggling after work. It's a great routine we've invented. It really makes me even more greatful to my parents for giving this couch to me two years ago. I seriously live such a blessed life. I mean, sure, I got in a pickle in the snow yesterday just like everyone else, and I have a billion and one things make me go semi crazy yesterday. HOWEVER, I got to come home to my sweet husband and we got to snuggle on our giant golden brown couch. Oh yeah, and my dad bought us each a shovel so we can be prepared citizens of minnesota from here on out. ;)

Yesterday we had a rep from Alterna come in to give us a class. Alterna is probably my FAVORITE line of products that we carry. It doesnt matter what you are using of theirs, it's gonna make your hair feel AMAZING!!!! So I was giddy going into the class. But seriously, this lade was FANTASTIC. We learned so much about different curling techniques, and organic braiding and and ANNNNDDDD so many other really fancy thannngs. I don't do anything with updo's/upstyles at my salon but I seriously want to grab all of my long haired friends and start curling. SERIOUSLY. I'm so interested to see where my life takes me.
Ahh and on that note, it's time for this lade to get ready for work. Work work WoRk. See ya neeeeevveeerrr.

T

snow day('s)

over the weekend, we got a TON of snow. My husband and I still carried on with all of our already planned plans, but we chose NOT to make any new ones come Sunday. He watched football all day and I cleaned my backside off. literally, when being trapped inside for hours on end apparently "stuff" gets accomplished. I cleaned out our bedroom, did all of the laundry, cleaned the microwaveable, the kitchen, the living room, cleaned our every bag that was laying around in our room. I tackled all of the small projects sitting on my craft desk, I started teaching my husband a couple light things on his guitar, I made a Delicious chicken dinner  AND we went for a 45 minuet walk in the blizzard. We were sopping wet when we got back home, but seriously, it was a GORGEOUS walk. We than proceeded to finish off the night with a movie and clearly two bowls of popcorn. When I laid my head down last night I CRASHED...HARD. Now today's trick is about to begin. We own no shovel, and we are about to attempt to dig our cars out in a few minuets here. STAY TUNED. ;) Today could be either really fun at work, or REAAAALLLLYYY boring. Fabulous for me though, husband doesn't have to work until noon now so he gets to accompany me to my first round of "early" morning shots! So until later- Enjoy your snow days kiddies, I'm OUUUUTTT

Proud to be creative

Although I don't allow myself the time to get as creative as I once was, I am super pumped that I pushed another creation out from my fingertips tonight. Crafts has been a part of me since I was named Tiffany. I've always enjoyed making and solving my own "how to be cheap and still look cute" dilemmas. Ever since launching my stylist career three years ago, I chose to throw my crafty skills for gems and jewels in the backseat of my metaphoric life and solely focus on being the best stylist I could possibly be. That is still one of my day to day goals obviously, however now that I'm a married women my perspective on what I want in life is changing. Honestly, that might not have anything to do with being married as much as it does with being 25.5. This coming year I want to allow myself creative freedom again. I don't necessarily want to take my gems to market but I would like to make them. My inspiration for the evening came from an old bracelet. Whatever works right?

Also judge all you want, I know the background is a sheet. ;)

Ttyl-

T

Life's to short

GOODMORNING!
Just sitting here drinking my quite customized coffee, watching the today show while my husband sleeps next to me, and reflecting on the past couple days.
I've had such a busy weekend with really no down time. That's ok, this is my life. Oh and BTW, yeah I'm married now. ;) it's been a solid 3 months and I must say it TRULY does get better every day. I love doing life with this man. So back to my first point- I am so excited for this season! There are parties galore with the people that I most adore. I've concluded after a recent string of events that I am done doing things out of pure obligation. Starting now and into 2013 I no longer want to go to random gatherings of people that I already know I don't want to be friends with just to save face. Not cool. I have decided I no longer care if people wonder or don't wonder why I'm not at their "get together." My best friends mantra for 2013 is going to be to love more. Mine is going to be -life's to short-
Life is to short to not live it to the fullest
Life's to short to let another person dictate your happiness.
Life's to short to not give it all you've got.
Life's to short not to dance and sing every chance that comes.
Life's to short to not be reading the word every day.
Life's...to...short.

2013, I'm getting ready for you.


Happy Monday prettys.

Enjoy my husband as a hipster... ;)

See ya never...or in 5 days

Last night I deleted my facebook and instagram off of my phone, which I do about once every two months. We will see how long I can hold out this time before quickly re downloading.I just get so sick of being consumed with wasteful knowledge of other people's fake lives. I loath the posts that constantly complain, and I loath the posts that are clearly way to consistently perfect to be real. Kind of whiney, I know. I toy with the idea of deleting my facebook like every other day. It would be easier just to delete all the people that drive me bonkers but half of them are people that would actually get offended and are much to close in life to not cause discomfort. I would be semi sad to lose all my photos from the last billion years but seriously what would life be like if I didn't care about anything that anyone posted anywhere! :) I WANT TO BE FREEEEEE! For right now I am just doing what I always do and I'll just keep deleting and re downloading my dumb phone apps seeking freedom and connection all at the same time. Can we say conflicted?? HA! :)

anyway good luck to me, if I can convince myself and my hubby to take the plunge than perhaps 2013 could be facebook free.

Instagram on the other hand I more than likely will re download tomorrow! ;)

cheers.

The backroom is eating me alive

RUUUUH ROOOOOOW...

Business is SLOW. Slower than slow, it's like watching ice try to melt in below zero weather...IT DOESN'T HAPPEN!! I'm not even upset about the economy, it is what it is. I am however questioning my goals, wants and dreams for my life as of now. I have gone on many tangents in the last 2 weeks. I have had MUCH "down time" to question where I am in my life and I must say, my revelations have been a surprise. I'm ready for more, and less all at the same time. I won't complain about a single work related issue due to the fact that anyone could read this, so bare with my cryptic-ness. I love being a hairdresser, I love my clients. I don't love the hours I get to waste sitting on my butt not doing hair and not seeing my clients.  Honestly I don't want to work 9+ hour days for the next chapter in my life. They haven't paid off in the past, they are not propelling me or setting me up for the future. The only thing they are doing is inhibiting me from living a life and keeping all the shampoo bottles full and the backroom relatively clean. I know happiness isn't everything but I do believe in feeling a sense of pride and purpose in what you do from day to day and doing "this" for 9 hours, 5 days a week gives me no sense of that. I want more, I NEED MORE. I want less hours of agonizing over all the things I could be accomplishing in life outside of my four work walls and more accomplishing my dreams. I have goals and a time frame that I am going to live by for the next year, but I must say I am getting excited for what comes "next." I just need to figure out what that is...

stay tuned.

Hello from July

Hello from July…

Hola. I almost sat down and wrote to all of you in May as predicted, but instead I just re read through all of my goals in my last blog and called it a day.

So here I sit. One month and 2 weeks until I’m a Sadie Sadie married lady. WOW. I’ll let you in on a little glimpse of life as of right now. I’M NOT NERVOUS TO GET MARRIED. I am however STREEESSSED out!! And no, there is nothing that anyone else can do to take that stress away lol because if there was, I would quickly delegate. I’m on my own with the dress fittings, the tux’s, the guest list addresses, the shopping and preparing. $$$$$ It all boils down to money. Bryan and I have yet to grasp that concept of a budget. No matter how I try to live it ends up being less than paycheck to paycheck. Seriously, I’m excited to get married for all the right reasons, but BIILLLL CUUUUTTT… Sep can you please get here, I’m sick of paying rent by myself every month.
Can I give a shout out to my best friend puuuhhlease? She is the biggest Gem you will ever meet in your whole life. Not only is she a Mother, wife, daughter, sister and Nurse, but she somehow still finds the time to be my best friend/maid of honor. It makes me tear up from time to time trying to grasp how much she must love me (I’m still not quite sure how I deserve it,) in order for her to juggle my crazy life right on top of hers. She went ahead and planned my whole bachelorette party and anything that wasn’t perfect about it was in no way related to her or her perfect party planning. Not to mention dealing with my crazy family/friends in all other party planning aspects. She has been so quick to pick up any pieces during this engagement time that may have gotten broken (along with my mom.) Without her, Bryan would be a big huge ball of stress because I would be dumping all my cares on his shoulders instead.
So Stine, THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU. If I had a billion dollars, I would buy you a pony and fly you to Hawaii. I love you with all of my heart.


Thank you to all of my other besties that have traveled from near and far, called or messaged me to comfort, collect my thoughts or talk me off the ledge every other day. you are a treasure to me. More treasured than I could ever convey to you. The skype sessions, the backroom pep talks, the long distance phone calls, or the check in text messages. I appreciate them all. You all know my love language is COMMUNICATION. without it, I go bonkers. Here's the catch 22, I am TERRIBLE at responding. lol but the fact that you all consistently let me know I'm treasured  gives me daily reason to smile. :) I LOVE YYOOOUUU!!!!

 I am so thankful that I am choosing a life with one mate. I will NEVER go through all of this wedding hubub EVER AGAIN. It’s simply put, not for me. I am not a planner, and even though I keep a planner, I do not enjoy having no room for adventure or le way. Nor do I enjoy having every Jane, Lucy and Sandra calling me inquiring about anything wedding related every single day. LEAVE ME ALONE. QUIT CALLING ME, and LET ME BE MARRIED ALREADY.
- Discretion- I am however going to enjoy every basking moment of wedding shower glory while I’m in it. NO REGRETS. And one more discretion, I would have been even more worse off had I been engaged for a longer amount of time. Ever day that passes makes me even more stressed. We would have been good candidates for eloping. We actually discusses this several times but felt we would both regret not having a wedding one day in the distant future. So here we sit…planning the wedding that we don’t want to regret. ;)

I turned 25 on the 9th and I must say, it feels pretty grown up. I was fully expecting to have a melt down as 25 to my solidifies being a grown up and not a baby. However I truly think I had the very best birthday weekend EVER which made it a lot funner crossing that thresh hold.

I had  golden birthday re-do (because I clearly wasn’t able to revel in the golden ness at 9 years old.)
It was honestly one of the funnest nights I think I have had in FOREVER. Most all of my friends that make my heart smile were there. Everyone wore gold. It was fabulous. The next day per annual tradition, Bryan and I went to valley fair with my friend Kit and her lovely man Ned. I went ahead and threw my back out like a normal grandma who just turned 25. Oh and kit almost drowned in the wave pool lol. All in all, everything was totally worth it and it was a fabulous day. THAN last but not least on my actual birthday, it quite possibly might have been the BEEESSSSTTT day. I started the morning out having birthday coffee with my best friend and I got to spend some quality time with my God daughter. I feel so blessed to have witnessed her crawling in its beginning stages. I hear she’s a real mover now. ;) Than I picked up Bryan and I swear we drove everywhere under the sun. We picked up free birthday coffee twice, (one for him, one for me.) Than headed on up to tailors falls, stopping many times for adventure in between all of that. We finished out journey off with dinner at leo’s in dt Stillwater. I got to hang out with his parents for a brief moment and play with the pup, than I got to finish off my birthday with the ones who gave me life. THIRD ROUND OF BIRTHDAY COFFEE WITH MOM AND DAD!!!! J Oh and I got to hang out with the Ziolkowski’s for a half hour. All day long everyone under the sun called, texted or messaged me a happy birthday. Than just when I thought the day couldn’t possibly get any better, I walked into the door of my apartment to find a giant bouquet of yellow roses and tiger lily’s waiting for me. THANKS MOM. I was so overwhelmed I almost couldn’t sleep. It was the perfect birthday season transition into wedding season. I have many pictures to post and many more updates to follow, but I feel I have left you with enough for tonight.

Love from my heart to yours,

Ciao Bella-

I knew it would be good...

Hola from 2012.

Life is really great right now. In fact, I feel like a whole new person. Kind of anyway. I mean, deep down under everything I'm still the same old girl I always was. Just a little older (unfortunately.) Sorry I don't write a whole lot. I could probably blame it on my lack of internet but really what it boils down to is my lack of motivation to write. Funny because growing up, that is ALL that I did. I wrote songs, stories, poems, everything and anything that would form a sentence, I wrote it. Well, shout out to my stine-hars because she is probably the only one reading this. Which I am completely A.O.K with.

I have learned so much about myself in this past year. Some of the things I don't really care for, and others I will own with pride. Life is funny that way. God has brought so many amazing people into my life over the course of these past 365 days. Some I call my friends, some I call my co workers, some I call my family and others I just call "little buffers." ;) I recently got engaged, and that happening changed a LOT in my life. My hopes and dreams are all still there, but I have a whole slew of others that have been tacked on to those. A lot of my creative outlets have taken a back seat this past year which kind of saddens me. However if I fail to do anything about it to get them back, well than it's no one else's blame. I think I am going to take advantage of the 21 day fast that Substance does every year. I want to spend some time focusing on a few different areas of my life in the next 6 months. In order to do that I will either need to finish One tree hill asap (not an option,) or put it on the back burner, shut the tv off completely and get to work.

Being that it is a new year I of course have a few goals that I would like to try to achieve to better myself as a person, but also to be true to myself as a child of God. I don't consider these "new years resolution's" however because should God take me in a different direction completely I am not going to look back and consider the un-achieved as failures. Also because some of these things are things that I should have down phat by now and they just need to be adjusted so that my lifestyle reflects them. TOUGH

---IN 2012 I WOULD LIKE TO---

*Become a more dedicated person.

*Finish writing some music that I've labeled "UNABLE."

*Learn how to love and receive love in an unfathomable way.

*Budget my time wisely. [I get 2 day's off a week and have 987656 things/people that I would like to see/do.]

*Pick up my guitar daily

*Volunteer somewhere, somehow, I want to not only give back, but just GIVE in general.

*Learn to decipher what God's voice sounds like as opposed to my own.

*Fall in love with my job again every morning.

*Learn to love my clients and appreciate what they can bring into my life.

*Start learning french.(ahahaha...if I am really listing some of my dreams here.)

*Pray for the attention span of a gold fish to dissipate.

*Learn my fiance's love language.

*Give back to my parents in any way that I can.

*Visit my grand parents at least monthly, so that when I tell them I love them and appreciate them, it will not be in vain.

*Walk my dog more (so that my mom's life span for her does not come to fruition.) HA!

*Be a big part of Addies life.

*Show my best friends how much I value them

*learn the meaning of diligence, whether it be in my work outs, in my devotions, in doing my laundry, dishes, grocery shopping etc.

*Drink more water

*Go on COFFEE dates

*Clean up my language, and I don't mean ENGLISH.

And above all, I want to learn what it really means to share Christ's love with people so that when the spirit moves I can move with it.

I've been learning this past week via a book series Ive started that life really really REALLY is but a breath. We have a chance right here, right now to be a different person than we were yesterday. It's to short and to unknown to live selfishly, hindered and full of baggage. I want to let go of any suitcase full of worry, shame, tainted brokenness, confusion, labeled 2011 and beyond. I want to live in freedom. Freedom was given to us as a gift when Christ died on that cross for our sins. However, freedom is a choice that we need to choose daily. We can choose to put one foot in front of the other and walk in grace, or we can choose to pick up that suit case and be stuck. You can't fly when you have that kind of weight in your life.

I've already started making changes in my life, including letting go of people I've sadly clung to with false hope of reconciliation. I must say it was ridiculously hard to come to terms with that, however after going about the "clean up," the freedom that I have felt lately is unimaginable.

That all being said, I hope that 2012 holds clarity for all of your homes and hearts. ANNDDD lets be real, I probably won't be back on here until at LEAST May. ;)


Love- T